10.04.2007
So, I'm sick.
And, of course, it sucks. And, of course, I keep asking myself why I don't spend more time thanking god when I'm well. But whatever.
I've noticed that when you sleep all day, you tend to go in and out of the dream state more often than when you sleep only at night. This is probably because you're never really tired enough to sleep soundly so you're only ever dipping your toe into the waters of sleep.
Anyway, I've noticed that the fever in my head seems to be throwing nightmares my way, as if being sick isn't bad enough.
Have you ever noticed that the older you get, the more mundane but actually scary one's nightmares become? For instance, I've dreamed of the following:
- That my bank account got drained - Jesus... have I become one of those people who dream about nothing but money? No, I haven't, but I have an unusually large amount in my account right now and I find myself waking up, texting Chase, and confirming that it's still there.
- That my computer has crashed - Okay, now this one kind of makes sense. I've got iTunes videos playing in the background while I sleep and when it stops, that must figure into my subconscious somehow. Don't ask me how though.
- That one of my front teeth is falling out - Dental stuff scares the shit out of me and I'm terrified of losing my teeth... well... you know... before I turn sixty. I have one front tooth that's a tiny bit discolored and I think my mind likes to fuck with me about it. FUCK YOU, MIND!
All of this is much less glamorous than the nightmares I used to have which used to be big and horrific like a fucking movie. You know, arms, legs, gone, blood everywhere kind of shit.
Not that I had that many nightmares. I'm a generally happy person. An asshole, sure, but a happy asshole. Still, I wonder if getting older means that the things you fear become much more mundane.
And some of you might think, "Why doesn't he use his time to do something constructive like write or whatever?"
And that's a good question, except for one thing, you fucktard, I'm running a fever and can barely think straight enough to do my log in to my CMS much less do the work necessary in my sci-fi world. So... those of you who think that, fuck off. Those of you who don't, thank you for your understanding.
On the upside, maybe I'll get a rejection when I'm in this state. heh heh... imagine what kind of rejection log post I'll write then.
Keep your fingers crossed people!